My children have been napping for 1 hour (at the same time!). I have been reading blogs. I feel like I have totally squandered an hour of precious time. One could argue that I have spent it well - relaxing and doing something I want to do, instead of all of the things I need to be doing. After all, Sunday is a day of rest ... right? But I just feel guilty, I should have mopped, cleaned the bathrooms, worked on my photography biz stuff, checked something off of my list. For some reason, I seem to have a really hard time with rest. I am a "busy body" to an extreme. I always have a list. I always feel like I need to be accomplishing something. I have a love/hate relationship with this quality of mine. I love being productive and having a strong work ethic, but I hate that I have a hard time relaxing. I'm not always this way - it seems to ebb and flow, depending on my to do list and pressing tasks.
I read a blog post this week written by another mommy blogger with two children almost exactly the ages of mine. She gets up every day at 5 and has 2 hours to herself before her boys get up. I turned green and it wasn't because it was St. Patrick's Day - I am jealous. Not because I don't LOVE every moment with my children, but because I get up between 5-5:30 every day with my crazy girls who will not sleep in. They take turns waking up super early, or they just rise in-sync at the crack of dawn. If they would sleep another hour they would be much happier in the mornings (they aren't cranky but we Ava walks a fine line between content and needing a nap). I would be happier too! I could spend that hour exercising, or doing a daily devotional, and/or reading and writing blogs. I think it would help with my busy body syndrome. At church this morning I prayed for it to happen soon. Until that day, think of me next time you hit the snooze button ;)
